Prologue: So, this is some shit i started to write on this wednesday because of some of the events during the last weeks. Dunno how up to date you can say it is but I'll put it here anyway.
Soundtrack: Band of horses "the funeral", Phantom planet "California"
Where am I, what am I, and who am I?
I used to be able to answer these questions whitouth problem. But now, I'm not so shure any more.
Sometimes it feels like the easiest way to find ouit what kind of life I'm living, is to take an american teen/highschool movie (doesn't mather which, they're all the same anyway...), put it in french and then just let the pictures swallow you.
I mean, it's all there: The crazy lifeat the dorms', the thight group of friends, this fucking longing for independence, the crazy housepartys, and of course the fact that the main person (me!) has the most beatifull girlfriend you can imagine! =P.
That's the possitive things. On the other side of the scale we have the popularity that comes and goes, all the meaningles fucking intrigues, and (I'm sorry to say it but...) of course; the drugs.
There are some differences between the films and real-life though (thank God!).
First of all; the storry is a hell of a lot better and not at all so predictable. Then we have the fact that I haven't got a car (which is a must for all teen-movie stars!). But the most pressing difference is that this is really for real! It's all happening right here, right now, and I'm in the fucking middle of it.
Think the question of all this is, do I like it?
Hmmm... Yeah, I think you can say that I like it. This year have opened a new world and a new way of thinking for me. I have changed in more than just one way and become, I think, more open-minded and freethinking.
I could never have imagined 3 years ago that I would be where I am today.
Even if I've come a long way I'm not at the end yet, and that's the coolest thing about it. The fact that nothing of this has really been predicted makes me more and more curious of what the future will bring. I mean, annything can happen!
So I think that the best I can do is to keep my mind open and just try and live this life as it comes!
Stay alive, stay in touch.
Skie out.
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you have watched too much of the OC love =)
ReplyDeletevery nice post anyway, see you tomorrow!
Drugs? YOU. QUIT. NOW.
ReplyDeleteRegardless whether it's your friends or you. Or damn me I'll fly effing down there and give you the whole lecture, and it'll be MY style and not mother-style, which is far worse!
Dont worry siss. Not me. It's the stupid frenchmens who's drinking, smoking and sniffing away their lifes.
ReplyDeleteIt kinda gives you perspective though to have friends who's drug-addicts and alcoholist-wanabees.
Some of them Want to quit and loads of them just don't give a fuck.
The sad part is that I can't really help them.
Oh. Dear me. I see. Yes, I kind of know that situation. All one can do is really, really state one's position and mind about the matter, and ask them with a hard voice whether they REALLY know what they're doing.
ReplyDeleteAnd, of course, feel good because one doesn't do what they do themselves *wicked grin*.